Aku dan muzik

Dah lama sangat aku tak menulis. Takde rancangan pun nak menulis tapi memandangkan sekarang sudah hampir 8.30 pagi dan aku masih belum tidur, aku gagahkan diri juga. Bukan apa, kalau tidur pun dalam sejam dah kena bangun sebab ader urusan muzik yang perlu diselesaikan. Dan aku memang sentiasa ader masalah tidur, dan bila waktu nak tidur saja, mesti terpikir macam- macam benda kat kepala otak aku. Jadi daripada aku hanya berfikir, might as well i pen down what are the thoughts that are running in my head.

This few months has been a pretty much of a journey for me. I started to realise what i really want out of my life especially music. I discovered new habits of mine that i fail to discover throughout this 5 years. I love singing eversince i couldnt remember but it was 5 years back that i decided that i love RnB and would like to pursue that direction. Baru korang tau betapa lambatnya aku kan. Yes I learn music when i was a kid, and my parents sent me to a music school but it was 5 years back that I made up my mind to really focus on this. And eversince, i ve been singing mostly RnB songs and i ve been studying a loads of RnB stuff. Dan tahun lepas aku decide untuk berhenti kerja sepenuh masa untuk lebih mendalami ilmu muzik. But after producing a couple of live showcase i realised something more than singing. Something fulfilling to my soul.

I love music more than I love singing. I realised that i get more excited when it all comes to music than just a vocalbox. Kalau mak ayah aku pasang American Idol, i would pay more attention to the big band and orchestra rather than just the vocallist. Kalau musician tengah main, aku akan perhatikan diorang. Every single thing about music excites me, even a conversation will take nothing less than 3 hours. Kadang2 aku rasa menyesal kenapa aku tak betul2 belajar muzik di mana-mana institute pengajian. Menyesal belajar IT and buat pening kepala, at the end of the day its still music. Thats how passionate I am towards music.

I appreciate music so much. Sejauh mana aku pergi dan melangkah, aku tetap akan mendengar dan senantiasa belajar benda baru dari orang, walaupun orang tu sendiri sangat baru. Thats how i learn, lebih kepada informal learning. I do it the hard way, sbb tu orang tak boleh datang dekat aku cakap benda crap yang diorang sendiri pun taktau. Benda yang paling penting seperti appresiasi muzik pun tak reti. Inikan pula benda benda lain dalam music seperti music business.

Kadang2 aku malu kenapa artis kita tertutama sekali yang tiada pengetahuan pasal music boleh nak jadi penyanyi, apatah lagi kalau meletup. Pening aku pikir !!! Pastu record label pulak memilih, kalau ader rupa, ader body, boleh jual, apa lagi sign lah padahal bakat tak seberapa. Nak menyanyi belajar vocal dan belajar music. Ini taktau satu apa, ader hati nak jadi penyanyi. Well, bebel aku ni tidak bertujuan untuk menghentam kepada sesiapa. Aku sendiri masih belajar malah jauh dari sempurna. But its just a reminder to myself. Andi, if you wanna do it, learn and grow. This is what i wanna do. MUSIC !!! i cherish and protect it. Its something very dear and has great value in my heart.

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